Part Four. Man's Response
Chapter 9. Counting the Cost
So far we have examined some of the evidence for the unique deity of Jesus of Nazareth; we have considered man's need as a sinner, estranged from God, imprisoned in himself and out of harmony with his fellows; and we have outlined the main aspects of the salvation which Christ has won for us, and offers to us. It is now time for us to ask the personal question put to Jesus Christ by Saul of Tarsus on the Damascus road, "What shall I do, Lord?" or the similar question asked by the Philippian jailer, "What must I do to be saved?"
Clearly we must do something. Christianity is no mere passive acquiescence in a series of propositions, however true. We may believe in the deity and the salvation of Christ, and acknowledge ourselves to be sinners in need of his salvation; but this does not make us Christians. We have to make a personal response to Jesus Christ, committing ourselves unreservedly to him as our Savior and Lord. The precise nature of this step we shall leave to the next chapter; some of its practical implications will concern us in this.
Jesus never concealed the fact that his religion included a demand as well as an offer. Indeed, the demand was as total as the offer was free. If he offered men his salvation, he also demanded their submission. He gave no encouragement whatever to thoughtless applicants for discipleship. He brought no pressure to bear on any inquirer. He sent irresponsible enthusiasts away empty. Luke tells us of three men who either volunteered, or were invited, to follow Jesus; but not one passed the Lord's tests. The rich young ruler, too, moral, earnest and attractive, who wanted eternal life on his own terms, went away sorrowful, with his riches intact but with neither life nor Christ as his possession.
On another occasion great crowds were following Jesus. Perhaps they were shouting their slogans of allegiance and giving an impressive outward demonstration of their loyalty. But Jesus knew how superficial their attachment to him was. Stopping, and turning round to speak to them, he told a pointed parable in the form of a question: Which of you, desiring to build a tower, does not first sit down and count the cost, whether he has enough to complete it? Otherwise, when he has laid a foundation, and is not able to finish, all who see it begin to mock him, saying, "This man began to build, and was not able to finish."[1] Luke 14:25-30.
The Christian landscape is strewn with the wreckage of derelict, half-built towers—the ruins of those who began to build and were unable to finish. For thousands of people still ignore Christ's warning and undertake to follow him without first pausing to reflect on the cost of doing so. The result is the great scandal of Christendom today, so-called "nominal Christianity." In countries to which Christian civilization has spread, large numbers of people have covered themselves with a decent, but thin, veneer of Christianity. They have allowed themselves to become somewhat involved; enough to be respectable but not enough to be uncomfortable. Their religion is a great, soft cushion. It protects them from the hard unpleasantness of life, while changing its place and shape to suit their convenience. No wonder the cynics speak of hypocrites in the church and dismiss religion as escapism. The message of Jesus was very different. He never lowered his standards or modified his conditions to make his call more readily acceptable. He asked his first disciples, and he has asked every disciple since, to give him their thoughtful and total commitment. Nothing less than this will do.
We are now in a position to discuss precisely what he said. He called to him the multitude with his disciples, and said to them, "If any man would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. For whoever would save his life will lose it; and whoever loses his life for my sake and the gospel's will save it. For what does it profit a man, to gain the whole world and forfeit his life? For what can a man give in return for his life? For whoever is ashamed of me and of my words in this adulterous and sinful generation, of him will the Son of man also be ashamed, when he comes in the glory of his Father with the holy angels."[2] Mark 8:34-38.
The Call to Follow Christ
At its simplest Christ's call was "Follow me." He asked men and women for their personal allegiance. He invited them to learn from him, to obey his words and to identify themselves with his cause. Now there can be no following without a previous forsaking. To follow Christ is to renounce all lesser loyalties. In the days when he lived among men on earth, this meant a literal abandonment of home and work. Simon and Andrew "left their nets and followed him." James and John "left their father Zebedee in the boat with the hired servants, and followed him." Matthew, who heard Christ's call while he was "sitting at the tax office... left everything, and rose and followed him." Today, in principle, the call of the Lord Jesus has not changed. He still says "Follow me," and adds, "whoever of you does not renounce all that he has cannot be my disciple." In practice, however, this does not mean for the majority of Christians a physical departure from their home or their job. It implies rather an inner surrender of both and a refusal to allow either family or ambition to occupy the first place in our lives. Let me be more explicit about the forsaking which cannot be separated from the following of Jesus Christ.
First, there must be a renunciation of sin. This, in a word, is repentance. It is the first part of Christian conversion. It can in no circumstances be bypassed. Repentance and faith belong together. We cannot follow Christ without forsaking sin. Repentance is a definite turn from every thought, word, deed and habit which is known to be wrong. It is not sufficient to feel pangs of remorse or to make some kind of apology to God. Fundamentally, repentance is a matter neither of emotion nor of speech. It is an inward change of mind and attitude toward sin which leads to a change of behavior.
There can be no compromise here. There may be sins in our lives which we do not think we ever could renounce; but we must be willing to let them go as we cry to God for deliverance from them. If you are in doubt regarding what is right and what is wrong, what must go and what may be retained, do not be too greatly influenced by the customs and conventions of Christians you may know. Go by the clear teaching of the Bible and by the prompting of your conscience, and Christ will gradually lead you further along the path of righteousness. When he puts his finger on anything, give it up. It may be some association or recreation, some literature we read, or some attitude of pride, jealousy or resentment, or an unforgiving spirit. Jesus told his followers to pluck out their eye and cut off their hand or foot if these caused them to sin. We are not to obey this with dead literalism, of course, and mutilate our bodies. It is a vivid figure of speech for dealing ruthlessly with the avenues along which temptation comes to us.
Sometimes, true repentance has to include "restitution." This means putting things right with other people, whom we may have injured. All our sins wound God, and nothing we do can heal the wound. Only the atoning death of our Savior, Jesus Christ, can do this. But when our sins have damaged other people, we can sometimes help to repair the damage, and where we can, we
must. Zacchaeus, the dishonest tax collector, more than repaid the money he had stolen from his clients and promised to give away half his capital to the poor to compensate (no doubt) for thefts he could not make good. We must follow his example. There may be money or time for us to pay back, rumors to be contradicted, property to return, apologies to be made or broken relationships to be mended.
We must not be excessively overscrupulous in this matter, however. It would be foolish to rummage through past years and make an issue of insignificant words or deeds long ago forgotten by the offended person. Nevertheless, we must be realistic about this duty. 1 have known a student rightly confess to the university authorities that she had cheated in an exam, and another return textbooks which he had lifted from a shop. An army officer sent to the War Department a list of items he had "scrounged." If we really repent, we shall want to do everything in our power to redress the past. We cannot continue to enjoy the fruits of the sins we want to be forgiven.
Second, there must be a renunciation of self. In order to follow Christ we must not only forsake isolated sins but renounce the very principle of self-will which lies at the root of every act of sin. To follow Christ is to surrender to him the rights over our own lives. It is to abdicate the throne of our heart and do homage to him as our King. This renunciation of self is vividly described by Jesus in three phrases.
It is to deny ourselves: "If any man would come after me, let him deny himself." The same verb is used of Peter's denial of the Lord in the courtyard of the high priest's palace. We are to disown ourselves as completely as Peter disowned Christ when he said "I do not know the man." Self-denial is not just giving up sweets and cigarettes, either for good or for a period of voluntary abstinence. For it is not to deny things to myself, but to deny myself to myself. It is to say no to self, and yes to Christ; to repudiate self and acknowledge Christ.
The next phrase Jesus used is to take up the cross: "If any man would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow me." If we had lived in Palestine and seen a man carrying his cross, we should at once have recognized him as a convicted prisoner being led out to pay the supreme penalty. For Palestine was an occupied country, and this is what the Romans compelled their convicted criminals to do. So, writes Professor H. B. Swete in his commentary on Mark's Gospel, to take up the cross is "to put oneself into the position of a condemned man on his way to execution." In other words the attitude to self which we are to adopt is that of crucifixion. Paul uses the same metaphor when he declares that "those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh (i.e., their fallen nature) with its passions and desires." In Luke's version of this saying of Christ the adverb "daily" is added. Every day the Christian is to die. Every day he renounces the sovereignty of his own will. Every day he renews his unconditional surrender to Jesus Christ.
The third expression which Jesus used to describe the renunciation of self is to lose our life: "Whoever loses his life... will save it." The word for "life" here denotes neither our physical existence nor our soul but our self. The psyche is the ego, the human personality which thinks, feels, plans and chooses. According to a similar saying preserved by Luke Jesus simply used the reflexive pronoun and talked about a man forfeiting "himself." The man who commits himself to Christ, therefore, loses himself. This does not mean that he loses his individuality, however. His will is indeed submitted to Christ's will, but his personality is not absorbed into Christ's personality. On the contrary, as we shall see later, when the Christian loses himself, he finds himself, he discovers his true identity. So in order to follow Christ we have to deny ourselves, to crucify ourselves, to lose ourselves. The full, inexorable demand of Jesus Christ is now laid bare. He does not call us to a sloppy half-heartedness, but to a vigorous, absolute commitment. He calls us to make him our Lord. The astonishing idea is current in some circles today that we can enjoy the benefits of Christ's salvation without accepting the challenge of his sovereign lordship. Such an unbalanced notion is not to be found in the New Testament. "Jesus is Lord" is the earliest known formulation of the
creed of Christians. In days when imperial Rome was pressing its citizens to say "Caesar is Lord," these words had a dangerous flavor. But Christians did not flinch. They could not give Caesar their first allegiance, because they had already given it to the Emperor Jesus. God had exalted his Son Jesus far above all principality and power and invested him with a rank superior to every rank, that before him "every knee should bow... and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord."[3] Philippians 2:10-11. To make Christ Lord is to bring every department of our public and private lives under his control. This includes our career. God has a purpose for every life. Our business is to discover it and do it. God's plan may be different from our parents' or our own. If he is wise, the Christian will do nothing rash or reckless. He may already be engaged in, or preparing for, the work God has for him to do. But he may not. If Christ is our Lord, we must open our minds to the possibility of a change.
What is certain is that God calls every Christian to "ministry," that is, to service, to be the servant of other people for the sake of Christ. No Christian can live for himself any longer. What is not certain is what form this service will take. It might be the ordained ministry of the church or some other kind of full-time church work at home or overseas. But it is a great mistake to suppose that every committed Christian is called to this. There are other forms of service which equally deserve the job description "Christian ministry." For example, the calling of many girls to be wife, mother and homemaker is in the fullest sense "Christian ministry," since she is serving Christ, her family and the community. So is every form of work—medicine, research, the law, education, social service, central and local government, industry, business and trade—in which the worker sees himself as cooperating with God in the service of man.
Do not be in too great a hurry to discover God's will for your life. If you are surrendered to it and waiting on God to disclose it, he will make it known to you in his own time. Whatever it proves to be, the Christian cannot be idle. Whether he is an employer, an employee or self-employed, he has a heavenly Master. He learns to grasp God's purpose in his work, and labors at it with all his heart, "as serving the Lord and not men." Another department of life which passes under the lordship of Jesus Christ is our marriage and our home. Jesus once said, "Do not think that I have come to bring peace on earth; I have not come to bring peace, but a sword." He went on to speak of the clash of loyalties which sometimes arises within a family when one of its members begins to follow him. Such family conflicts still take place today. The Christian should never seek them. He has a definite duty to love and honor his parents and other members of his family. Since he is called to be a peacemaker, he will make as many concessions as he can without compromising his duty to God. Yet he can never forget Christ's word: "He who loves father or mother... son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me."[4] Matthew 10:34, 37.
Further, a Christian is at liberty to marry only a Christian. The Bible is definite here: "do not be mismated with unbelievers."[5] 2 Corinthians 6:14.This command can bring great distress to somebody who is already engaged or nearly so, but the fact must be honestly faced. Marriage is not merely a convenient social custom. It is a divine institution. And the married relationship is the deepest into which human beings can enter. God designed it to be an intimate union, not only physical, emotional, intellectual and social, but spiritual. For a Christian to marry someone with whom he or she cannot be spiritually one is not only to disobey God but to miss the fullness of the union he intended. It also puts the children of the marriage at risk, for it introduces them to religious conflict in their own home and makes impossible the Christian education they should receive from both their parents.
Indeed, so radical is Christian conversion that our whole attitude to marriage, and to relations between the sexes, is likely to change. We begin to see sexuality—the fundamental distinction between man and woman, and the need of each for the other—as itself the creation of God. And sex—the physical expression of sexuality—is no longer debased by selfish irresponsibility into something casual and essentially impersonal, but becomes what the Creator meant it to be,
something good and right, the expression of love, a fulfillment of the divine purpose and of the human personality.
Other formerly private affairs over which Jesus Christ becomes Master, when we commit our lives to him, are our money and our time. Jesus often spoke about money and about the danger of riches. Much of his teaching on the subject is very disturbing. It sometimes seems as if he was recommending his disciples to realize their capital and give it all away. No doubt he still calls some of his followers to do this today. But for most his command is to an inner detachment rather than to a literal renunciation. The New Testament does not imply that possessions are sinful in themselves.
Christ certainly meant us to put him above material wealth just as we are to put him above family ties. We cannot serve God and mammon. Moreover, we are to be conscientious in the use of our money. It is no longer ours. We hold it in stewardship from God. And in an era in which the gap between affluence and poverty is widening throughout the world, and in which the Christian missionary enterprise is severely hampered by lack of funds, we should be generous and disciplined in what we give away.
Time is every man's problem these days; and the newly converted Christian will undoubtedly have to rearrange his priorities. While he is a student, academic work will come high on the list. Christians should be known for their hard work and honesty. But he will also make time for new employments. He will have to carve out of his busy schedule time for daily prayer and Bible reading, for setting Sunday apart as the Lord's day which was instituted as a day of worship and rest, for fellowship with other Christians, for reading Christian literature and for some kind of service in the church and the community.
All this is involved if we are to forsake sin and self, and follow Christ.
The Call to Confess Christ
We are commanded not only to follow Christ privately but to confess him publicly. It is not enough to deny ourselves in secret if we deny him in the open. He said:
"Whoever is ashamed of me and of my words in this adulterous and sinful generation, of him will the Son of man also be ashamed, when he comes in the glory of his Father with the holy angels." "Everyone who acknowledges me before men, I also will acknowledge before my Father who is in heaven; but whoever denies me before men, I also will deny before my Father who is in heaven."[6] Mark 8:38; Matthew 10:32-33.
Now the very fact that Jesus told us not to be ashamed of him shows that he knew we would be tempted to be ashamed; and the fact that he added "in this adulterous and sinful generation" shows that he knew why. He evidently foresaw that his church would be a minority movement in the world; and it requires courage to side with the few against the many, especially if the few are unpopular and you may not be naturally drawn to them.
Yet this open confession of Christ cannot be avoided. Paul declared it to be a condition of salvation. In order to be saved, he wrote, we have not only to believe in our hearts but to confess with our lips that Jesus is Lord, "for man believes with his heart and so is justified, and he confesses with his lips and so is saved." The apostle may have been referring to baptism. Certainly, if not already baptized, the convert must be baptized, partly to receive through the application of water a visible sign and seal of his inward cleansing and new life in Christ, and partly to acknowledge publicly that he has trusted in Jesus Christ as his Savior and Lord. But the Christian's open confession does not end with his baptism. He must be willing for his family and friends to know he is a Christian, especially at first by the life he leads. This is bound in due course to lead to an opportunity for spoken witness, although he should be humble and honest here and not blunder tactlessly into other people's privacy. At the same time, he will join a
church; associate himself with other Christians at his college or place of business; not be afraid to own up to his Christian commitment when challenged about it; and start seeking by prayer, example and testimony to win his friends for Christ.
Incentives
The demands Jesus makes are heavy; but the reasons he gives are compelling. Indeed, if we are seriously to consider the total surrender for which he asks, we shall need these powerful incentives.
The first incentive is for our own sake.
Whoever would save his life will lose it; and whoever loses his life... will save it. For what does it profit a man, to gain the whole world and forfeit his life? For what can a man give in return for his life?[7] Mark 8:35-37. Many people have a deep-seated fear that if they commit themselves to Jesus Christ, they will be the losers. They forget that Jesus came into the world that we might "have life, and have it abundantly," that his purpose is to enrich not to impoverish, and that his service is perfect freedom.
Of course there are losses to face when we submit to Christ. We have already thought of the sin and self-centeredness which we have to forsake; and we may lose some of our friends. But the rich and satisfying compensations far outweigh every loss. The astonishing paradox of Christ's teaching and of Christian experience is this: if we lose ourselves in following Christ, we actually find ourselves. True self-denial is true self-discovery. To live for ourselves is insanity and suicide; to live for God and for man is wisdom and life indeed. We do not begin to find ourselves until we have become willing to lose ourselves in the service of Christ and of our fellows.
To enforce this truth, Jesus placed in contrast the whole world and the individual soul. He then asked a businessman's question of profit and loss. Supposing you were to gain the whole world and lose yourself, he asked, what profit would you have made? He was arguing on the lowest level of personal self-advantage, that to follow him is undoubtedly to have the best of the bargain. For to follow him is to find ourselves, whereas to hold on to ourselves and refuse to follow him is to lose ourselves and forfeit our eternal destiny, whatever material gains we may have made meanwhile. Why is this? Well, for one thing we cannot gain the whole world. For another, if we did, it would not last. And third, while it did last, it would not satisfy. "What can a man give in exchange for himself?" Nothing is valuable enough even to make an offer. Of course it costs to be a Christian; but it costs more not to be. It means losing oneself.
The second incentive for Christian commitment is for the sake of others. We should not submit to Christ only for what we get, but for what we can give. "Whoever loses his life for... the gospel's sake, will save it." "For the sake of the gospel" means "for the sake of proclaiming it to others." We have already heard that we must not be ashamed of Christ or of his words; now we are to be so proud of him that we want to spread his good news to others.
Most of us feel oppressed by the heart-rending tragedy of this chaotic world. Our very survival is questionable. The ordinary citizen often feels a helpless victim of the tangled web of politics or a faceless unit in the machine of modern society. But the Christian need not succumb to this sense of powerlessness. For Jesus Christ described his followers as both "the salt of the earth" and "the light of the world." The use of salt before refrigeration had been invented was largely negative—to prevent decay in fish or meat. So Christians should stop society from deteriorating, by helping to preserve moral standards, influence public opinion and secure just legislation. As the light of the world Christians are to let their light shine. They have found in Jesus Christ the secret of peace and love, of personal relationships, of changing people; they must share their secret with others. The best contribution anyone can make is to live a Christian life, build a Christian home and radiate the light of the gospel of Jesus Christ.
The greatest incentive of all, however, is for Christ's sake. "Whoever loses his life for my sake... will save it." When we are asked to do something particularly hard, whether or not we are willing to do it depends very much on who asks us. If the request comes from someone who has a claim on us, and to whom we are indebted, we are glad to agree. This is why Christ's appeal to us is so eloquent and so persuasive. He asks us to deny ourselves and follow him for his own sake.
Surely this is why he describes the renunciation he demands as "taking up the cross." He asks no more than he gave. He asks a cross for a cross. We should follow him neither just for what we can get nor for what we can give, but supremely because of what he gave. He gave himself. Will it cost us much? It cost him more. He left the Father's glory, the immunities of heaven and the worship of countless angels when he came. He humbled himself to assume man's nature, to be born in a stable and laid in a manger, to work at a carpenter's bench, to make friends with rustic fisherfolk, to die on a common cross and to bear the sins of the world. Only a sight of the cross will make us willing to deny ourselves and follow Christ. Our little crosses are eclipsed by his. If we once catch a glimpse of the greatness of his love to suffer such shame and pain for us who deserved nothing but judgment, only one course of action will seem to be left. How can we deny or reject such a lover?
If, then, you suffer from moral anemia, take my advice and steer clear of Christianity. If you want to live a life of easygoing self-indulgence, whatever you do, do not become a Christian. But if you want a life of self-discovery, deeply satisfying to the nature God has given you; if you want a life of adventure in which you have the privilege of serving him and your fellow men; if you want a life in which to express something of the overwhelming gratitude you are beginning to feel for him who died for you, then I would urge you to yield your life, without reserve and without delay, to your Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ.
Your call is clear, cold centuries across;
You bid me follow you, and take my cross,
And daily lose myself, myself deny,
And stern against myself shout "Crucify."
My stubborn nature rises to rebel
Against your call. Proud choruses of hell
Unite to magnify my restless hate
Of servitude, lest I capitulate.
The world, to see my cross, would pause and jeer.
I have no choice, but still to persevere
To save myself—and follow you from far,
More slow than Magi—for I have no star.
And yet you call me still. Your cross
Eclipses mine, transforms the bitter loss
I thought that I would suffer if I came
To you—into immeasurable gain.
I kneel before you, Jesus, crucified,
My cross is shouldered and my self denied;
I'll follow daily, closely, not refuse
For love of you and man myself to lose.